Shrouded in darkness, memories fade;
Life is but a living memory..
I am GABRIELLE. thats all you need to know.
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Monday, April 19, 2010, 5:24 AM
ok i cant help it, i just have to post again.I am REALLY upset about this. i really do not like my class right now, and i actually survived it only because you 2 were there. No, im not thanking you. im just acknowledging you. understand? okay. good.
After afew weeks, i'll probably change my mind about everything i've said up till now though. im just saying. i really might. i love having to type this into the computer. somehow its so relaxing.
and the best thing is, stupid people cant comment when i rant. yay. first time.
cause somehow whenever i rant to people, some give me STUPID comments . and i'd feel like slapping their face. but no, i cant . you know why? cause im too nice. really, i am.
Most times i wonder who would actually be there for me.
PL inspirations. an eye opener for me. tells me who my REAL friends are. and who are not. And i understand that you dont like music/ not that interested. but seriously, you went for BAND concert. you could've just gone for inspirations, which was cheaper anyway.
Even my friend from church who im not that close with came. of course sarah came. the thing is, somehow i can depend on them. but with you, i always have doubts.
i hate it when i ask you people out and go like " hey. wanna go for lunch tmr?" and then all you ask is, "WHO IS GOING". somehow i always think that line is pathetic. i might sound like a hypocrite, but i have my reasons. i really do. example, even if i was the only one able to go, i would. you know why? that just shows how much i appreciate that person/ treasure that person.
But no, you, your different. you think your the best, you think your so damn smart seriously? what is wrong with you. your love for audi, i hope it will take over. go on, be lonely again and not care about the rest of the world. somehow, i think you deserve it. you deserve to be lonely and sad. cause everytime you come complaining to me, i listen, but you do the exact same thing your complaining about to me.that is just unfair.
and from today on, i promise you, i do not regard you as a friend anymore.
ok, now i feel better.
update in a long while
4:43 AM
argh. im so annoyed right now.and scared.
what am i going to do if the 2 people i count on most in class ignores me.
yes, im scared of being alone. i always have been, always will be.
maybe because i hardly ever am alone. sometimes maybe. but usually, no.
and i am scared. very very scared. i would like to tell myself to stop it and just not think so much, but i cant, cause, i really am scared. i hate being alone. i hate being hated. i dont ever want to lose any of my friends unless i really have to. and yet. i dont want to be stuck in a fake friendship where hanging out is just for show.BUT I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE ALONE. i hate being alone. its so saddening. i had such a wonderful day together. mostly anyway.
you people treat me like strangers. but whatever you do,i guess i will just try to accept it, even if i dont like it.
why is life like this, nono, why is MY life like this.
i know that there are other people who probably have it worse than me.
but still.
i cant take this anymore.
the feeling of being alone sucks.
i dont want to be confused anymore. and i dont want to rely on anyone.
i think i should turn to God.
i shall try to seem happy tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 4:33 AM
nobody has the right to judge anyone else.so if you think you have the right,
you might as well come up to me and say it,
instead of approaching someone else and making them do your dirty work
cause its plain selfish and unreasonable.
dont try making someone talk to me nicely when i know what you have to say in the first place isn't nice at ALL.
if you dont know the TRUTH or the FACT at least.
could you hmm. keep your freaking mouth shut and MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
keep this up, and everyone will flee.
its not gonna be my fault when that time comes.
obviously right now i'll be angry at you.
cause I DONT KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU ARE.
cause your an ass that doesnt even have the courage to say things on your own.
if you dont know the situation or what the problem was in the first place.
THEN GO AWAY.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE.
NOW.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009, 12:14 AM
Argh.i really cant stand people that are just so.. so.. ANNOYING.
not in the little-brother-way more like in the i-know-im-annoying-so-deal-with-it way.
i mean yes i can totally understand that what you are trying to do is to make me study.
but HELLO. i've already told you a THOUSAND times. I DONT WANT TO.
its MY life.
NOT yours.
and if you think that your drifting or dao me cause i dont want to study then dao lor. TRY ME.
see if i give a damn.
just mind your own business and get out of my life you moron.
Friday, September 18, 2009, 5:45 AM
blehhtrust is so complicated.
friends are so confusing.
situations are ... cliched.
and my life. currently. well. sucks.
ps: have not started any studying..
threatens.
Friday, September 11, 2009, 1:43 AM
man. i hate it when people threaten me.
so annoying.
then some idiots can go like " oh.if you dont study then i'll dao you. "
do u think i give a damn?
dao then dao lor. Your freaking LOSS. NOT MINE.
who the hell do you think you are.
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is there anything wrong with smsing people?
NO.
and whats wrong with smsing the people you will be meeting or seeing.
NOTHING.
and then he goes " if you keep smsing like that, i wont let you go to church"
WTF la.
stop using church as a threaten.
cause its just plain stupid and childish.
Thursday, September 10, 2009, 5:08 AM
its really troublesome to have so many blogs.ok hold on. i'll blog on the other ones first. and btw.
the pb blog is so dead.